Pan’s lullabies
(Dog nails click on the hardwood floor in the background.)
So I’m just gonna sing some songs that I wrote. Um - and they’re sort of lullabies. I know in this time…
[Talking to Benson] Come on Bubba, come lay down please, come lie down please (dog nails on hardwood floor).
…I know that it can be hard to sleep, it can be hard to dream right now. (sighs) It can be so hard to dream right now - and to think… differently, right? And that’s what we need - that’s exactly what we need to be doing, is coming together - (chuckles) cumming together, coming together - um, relating, right?
And sleeping and sustaining ourselves, for the new futures we are building even though it seems like the world is just revolving the same way - there’s no new worlds, only new suns. So, let’s dream a little bit.
Dream a little dream with me (chuckles).
Woods is a White transmasc person with a buzzcut and a gray beanie sitting crosslegged on a light mahogany-ish hardwood floor. Their back rests on white wainscot paneling. They are holding a lilac lined journal. There is a black Jansport backpack to the left of them. It is open with a shoebox-sized plastic bin filled with tarot decks - like the Citadel tarot deck - and mason jars filled with sea glass and pebbles peaking out. Lying face up on the floor in front of the backpack is the Seeds of Wisdom from the Divine Feminine Tarot Deck, underneath which Lecoq’s The Moving Body is sandwiched between a yellow journal and a white journal. To their right is an unopened black journal. They are wearing loose, black linen overalls and a black tank top with white stitching outlining the straps. Draped halfway down their arms is a black and white plaid button-up shirt. They are wearing Cruel Ruby colored lipstick.
This describes all of the videos below, as well. Anything different will be noted.
May these
lullabies
help you
dream big
too
help us keep living
the actual dream
I absolutely loved making this - I’m looking to grow further capacity to produce these songs and others for a little sleepy time album - and to live out what I hoped my life would be like as a little kid. Thank you for your support!
brat for the universe
what if I told you
i’m ready I know
what I want
what if I said
you’re a treasure
X marks the spot
all the pieces
you think are broke
are just stained glass
you’re a cathedral
I’ll kneel at your altar
make sure you know
you’re wanted by me
never ghosted,
just haunted
by your beauty
and we’ll dance
in the flames
of the binaries
they wanted us
framed in
yeah we’ll wave
to the devil
cause hell
is just heaven
when i’m with you
all those sins they say
should be inscribed
on our souls
are just about as
relevant as those
damn missing bones
thrown into the graves
we refuse to climb into
and we’ll wave to the
garden of eden
cause we’ve got our own
fertile soil we’re seeding
there’s no worlds
only new suns
I feel like i’m
under one
under you
and I know people
will be clutching
their pearls
but they’re the same
ones that said girls
just wanna have fun
well i’m sorry ma’am
I just don’t wanna
be one
don’t wanna be one,
I wanna be two
maybe three,
but right now
i’m just lookin at you
just lookin at you
won’t ask for permission
nor forgiveness
cause I lost religion
a long time ago
but I never lost faith
in a love
that dreams of
creating together, not
dividing and leaving
traces behind
yeah it’s a quantum
it’s a fractal
it’s a primordial
kind of love
i’ve got on my mind
and we’ll dance
in the flames
they wanted to
cave us in
yeah you were my tower
I guess now you’re
my religion
you’re the one
thing on my
to-do list
to-love list
to-want list
I never forgot
i’m ready
I know what
I want
(Vocally imitates falling off a cliff, follows the fall with their eyes and indicates surprise when whatever fell hits the bottom.)
(Giggles.)
you’re a treasure
and x marks the spot
(Chuckles.)
I didn’t know we’d be going all the way down there - I guess that’s hell!
(Pats the floor once.)
It’s just a floor.
(Winks, gets up to turn the camera off.)
In this video, you can see that Woods has black Adidas with white soles on. Their button-up lies behind them and, on the left, their linen overall strap is draped off of their shoulder.
French Toast
(San Francisco)
sat in a chair
in a square
in a corner
waiting for answers
like pop tarts in toasters
sweetness dripping like
icing over the edge
eating French toast
in a diner corner booth
chocolate chip banana
sated sweet tooth
got up and walked out
the door one day
turns out those limits
permeate
your lips are my
pearly gates
In this video, you can see that Woods has black Adidas with white soles on. Their button-up lies behind them and, on the left, their linen overall strap is draped off of their shoulder.
What do I do?
(grey sweatpants Season)
I actually don’t know what this is called…I guess, um…What do I do?
mirrors reflect
fractals diffract
lips to throat
and then
down my back
what do I do
when you’re
right in front
of me?
I look down
at my two
hands
and guess
it has something
to do with these
(Exhales.)
you are a masterpiece
not a blank canvas
I’ll follow your strokes
I’ll follow your grooves
nothing less
for a beauty
like you
nothing less
for a beauty
like you
(Laughs.)
Sunflower Moon
It’s called “Sunflower Moon."
moonlight inside me
refracting the sun
everyone arrives
for the light
but the dark
draws no one
I painted under the stars
like Vincent, I went
where the colors are
where the colors are
Vincent, I listened
Vincent, I cared
Vincent, I’m sorry
no one was there
but the moon
me and the world have been drownin’
craving that motherfuckin’ Craken
but the moon shows us our shadows
and I fell in love with dark
Starry, Starry Night wrapped around me
a portal to another galaxy
but the earth calls me home
pulled in like the tide
and pushed out to see
the physics of diving
into a shadow
and coming up
to breathe
spirits
alright we’ll see what we can get in on the battery here - this one’s called Spirits
you fill me up,
got me overflowing
don’t need any spirits
but yours to get me going
baby if you’re a river
i wanna ride it
if you’re the rocks
that block the way
i wanna climb them
you’re the climb, mmm
so i’ll give you your flowers
cause i know you’ll give
me mine, mmm
i’ll take you baby
but i’ll take my time too
and i’ll receive when
it’s my time to -
when you take charge,
we both come out on top
a mountain is just a bunch
of rocks
inertia rolls until it stops
i just know you’ll hold my
heart so it never drops
that’s why it beats for
you -
the music comes
through me
but comes from you -
what else is new?
oh clutch your pearls
and say your prayers
but i will not come up
for air
until i scale the heights
and dive the depths
(will i ever breathe
again?)
you’re like the
universe, nothing
less than complex
so pour into me,
i’ll keep you going
i’ll pour into you -
make sure you know
that our sparks
dance like flames
in divine and holy
ways
yin & yang
both within &
without
when they said
we’d go to hell
this can’t be
what they talked
about
the holy is
the broken
hallelujah -
i don’t feel
broken
at all
when
i’m with ya -
more like
a cathedral
made of
stained glass,
no more going
to confession
in the back -
i’m only on
my knees
for you
what’s more holy
than kneeling
before you?
what’s more divine?
they try and take
our lives -
hell, i almost
took my own
about
1,000 times -
but my heart
kept beating
for this rhythm
and i’ve
alchemized
through rhyme
out of all the
lifetimes,
i’m in yours
and you’re
in mine
we’ll fight to
keep us safe
and celebrate
this imperfect,
fractal fate
and when
i’ll kiss
your face,
i’ll see the
pearly gates
people talk
about,
and i’ll know
what i’ve
always known -
that heaven
is a place
on earth
and together
we’ll build
new worlds
they say
girls just
wanna have
fun
but we were
never girls -
even though
we each tried
so hard to
be one
we will
have fun -
dancing at
the foot
of the tower,
knowing
eden’s
ours -
all of ours -
and in eden
we wear masks
because there
we’ve not
forgotten
the harms of
the past
that turned
faces like ours
into traces
erased by powers
that be
and the mass
consumption
of apples
by mass
produced
apple trees
will start
burning down
burning
isn’t always
destruction,
sometimes
it cultivates
life
but if you
don’t destruct
the ableism at
the center of
your strife
they will
destruct you
so come join us
in eden
come join us
in hell
because we
all live here
in immanence
where it’s safe
to kneel at
the well
*laughs* I hope that recorded, oh please baby Jesus, please baby Jesus, it did! oh yeah *chuckles*